Its that age old expression of trying to fit a square peg in a round hole. When something doesn’t quite fit no matter how hard you try. That can be applied to people, those who just don’t fit in.
But what about those that seem to fit (sort of) everywhere?
I had a coworker tell me I was a walking contradiction the other day at work and I’ve been thinking a lot about what she said.
I am one of those people who seems to fit in a lot of different places. Not an amazing fit, not a perfect fit but I still fit.
Southern Belle v. country girl
Debutante v. one of the boys
English eventer v. barrel racer
Foodie v. fast food lover
Geek v. socialite
I love to hunt, shoot, fish, hike, ride, party, ride quads, drive and work on trucks, go mudding, go to the races, play video games, show animals, drink beer, train dogs, shoot whiskey, build bonfires, blow shit up and generally be a country kid.
but on the other hand…
I love to read, write, sing, play piano, craft, shop, bake, cook, sleep, stay in, go to exclusive industry events, drink good wine, eat gourmet food, learning to speak french, and wanting to start dancing again.
I wear a bow in my hair and pearls around my neck almost every single day of my life. I’m content in breeches and boots. I don’t give a hoot about getting dirty. I follow an etiquette handbook and have perfect equitation in an English saddle but I can shotgun beers and wrestle with the best of the boys.
I’m that peg that fits, kinda, in every hole but its not a great fit.
Now I’m frustrated trying to figure out exactly where I fit. I understand that where I am right now is where I “fit” but I feel like my world is so split between all the sides of my personality. Do I bother trying to force them all to coexist or do I just I just pick one side and stick to that?